A friend of mine asked me to write a blog post illuminating why so many ex-members of the Church of Scientology struggle in life. And why I seem to better handle the transition to real life from the strict rule-based confinement of toeing the Scientology party-line.
It is well documented that scientologists inside the church is struggling – despite the daily polishing of a PR facade, the following of the supposed-tos and putting on the right attitude, smile and clothing. While the structure and the rules of the church will compensate for individual abilities, when one leaves the crutches, the limping begins.
I have covered this from one angle before. Let me expand.
I have struggled. I have been in pain. Because I compromised with my integrity during my 25 years in the Church of Scientology. And I have struggled with getting back to Me just as much as I compromised with Me.
Fortunately I retained my ability to judge for myself better than most of the scientologists I know. Most of them are still in the church.
Shedding what data I somewhat blindly accepted and regaining Myself more fully has been an interesting exploration. And it continues as a joyful exploration of free will. Love and passion has become stronger and people have become more amazing.
When I left in 2009, I had personal meetings with 25 close scientologist friends to let them know my reasons for departing with the organization. One of them is a business owner. He’s doing quite good and confided in me that he was sick and tired of the church staff telling him how to run his business – because “none of them would be able to run a hot dog stand in the middle of Oslo“. The staff thought they knew how to run his business. In fact they knew how to run any business – even the largest enterprises on the planet. Because they were armed with L. Ron Hubbard’s administrative technology – the ultimate in organizational tools. Never mind that they run a church that would be bankrupt were it not for zero staff pay and pure donations from squeezed parishioners. Never mind that there is not one single example where LRH admin tech has made it as good or better than comparable organizational methodologies. But in the minds of those who blindly accepted the data presented, LRH admin tech is still the greatest. Even as Hubbard himself so rightly points out that one should look for the real results, not the PR or the smooth talk or the words, scientologists continue to buy the PR hook, line and sinker.
Buying some data without you yourself seeing it is actually true is a slippery slope. When it becomes a habit, you’re in for some real trouble. Whereas it can work to acquire robotic views inside a robotic system such as in the military, out in real life society, robotism doesn’t get you very far. That is why so many struggle when they leave the church. They struggle to regain Self – their personal judgment and integrity.
Most ex-scientologists struggle. There is even whole communities built up around the concept of “ex scientologists” where some continue to moan and bitch even a decade after they left. And it seems the higher in the church hierarchy and the longer they were in, the more they struggle. I have seen plenty of top brass within the church struggling to hold a decent job after they left. Well, the closer to the guy at the helm, the more you are coerced or forced to abandon your own critical thinking faculties. And the more work you have cut out for yourself in finding your way back to You.
The more I think about it, the more weird it seems to have a set path to freedom.
Frankly, You have the sole responsibility of finding your own path to your own freedom. Be inspired by others, scientists and gurus, mom and dad. But make sure that you take it as inspiration and not a supplantation of You. And may these words be nothing more than inspirational.
“The struggle alone pleases us, not the victory.” (Blaise Pascal)