When I left the Church of Scientology almost one year ago, I had three distinct motivations:
- To help stop the human rights abuses in and around the church
- To help the general public differentiate between Scientology and the Church of Scientology
- Get the teachings of L. Ron Hubbard freely released on the Internet
Looking at my motivation during the past year, it has gone from “getting out there and letting everyone know” and “let’s handle the abusive church” to something different in the present.
I do not feel compelled to stop the abuses by the church. Actually, I feel a stronger motivation for helping people in Somalia (as an example, albeit not a far-fetched one).
I feel the urge to help people, create, to do art and to communicate to individuals, to do amazing stuff one-on-one and to generally kick ass in the good sense. The urge to make a difference – not by stopping something bad but by doing something good. Nah, forget good. Doing something zesty, something excellent.