Inside Geir’s head while on OT 7, part 2

This post is a follow-up to “From inside Geir’s head while on OT 7

Disclaimer: The following is an excerpt from my thinking while doing OT 7 – the second highest level of spiritual counseling in Scientology. This was sometime during 2003. Parts of it differs from my current thinking. This is simply an attempt to give an insight into the mind of one person doing the biggest level of spiritual enhancement within Scientology – a level that took me 3,5 years with an average of 4 auditing sessions per day.

That must be the third guy just this morning… Yes, yes, we all know the drill. Carefully close the door behind me, not rushing it, be proper, take care of the security. OK, I was less than 2 meters inside the door when it closed behind me. Is the guy OK with that? He smiles. Not noting anything on his clipboard. Phew. No visit to the Ethics Officer this morning. But, three guys just this morning checking the security gate into the Solo NOTs area? Three students having had their run-in with ethics and making amends by standing inside the gate checking if any of the other students are security-sloppy – just this morning?

Ah… but uf curz! It’s Thursday morning! That explains it – it’s the Thursday 2pm completion race. Ha! Flag is really pumping for production this week.

I’m glad I never had to do any amends like that – checking people passing the gate, checking if all student briefcases inside the gate has both combination locks secured, checking for any other out security like pieces of paper with hints of confidential material lying around. I only had one mishap, and that was on Solo 2, where I left the room for just one second with a piece of paper left on the desk. But that piece of paper didn’t really have any confidential material on it. But hey, I’m still OK with being slapped with a Condition of Danger for that – after all, Solo 2 was all about training a Solo auditor to take the big step onto the OT levels. So, training for the needed high security was quite OK.

Alright, waiting. Waiting, waiting, waaaaiting… Where’s the Supervisor? Ah, there she comes. Hey guys, let Linda through. Looking stern as usual. I’m glad I know to shut my mouth, be nice and follow suit. Into the course room we go. Yep, past the second security door. Into the atmosphere… calm, almost serene. Really nice course room. And there’s Håkan, the friendliest course Sup. Yeah, I’ll stand over there while he does the Roll Call.

“Geir?”

“Right here!”

Snap and pop. Roll Call done, time to get the packs out. Cuing. And hurry now, the pack is unmounted and I only have a minute or so to plug the cord from the pack into a socket in one of the tables before the alarm goes off. And that would be a ton of shit hitting every fan in the house.

What if had taken my cell phone into the course room and taken photos of the confidential material. Hush! Get that thought out right away. But what IF? What if the church went crashing and no one could get hold of the material to audit themselves? A sort of rescue mission for spiritual freedom. Heck, what am I thinking? Any more nonsense like this and it will show up on the e-meter. On the Security Check every six months, they even ask about my intentions regarding keeping the confidentiality of the materials, and having out-security thoughts like this is smelling of danger – of long visits to the Ethics Officer, Court of Ethics, Committee of Evidence and whatnot. Maybe even getting barred from completing the OT levels. Forever. That would be worse than someone pulling the trigger with the barrel squarely aimed at my head. At least then I would come back and carry on with a new body. Being barred from doing the OT levels would mean no possible spiritual progress – a farewell to spiritual freedom. It would be the perpetual prison forever. Shrug! No, gotta stay in line here. Stay focused. Stay the course.

My stints as an OSA operative did show me that there is plenty of material on the Net. But it’s thwarted, altered, some are mush-mashed into weird shit. And nowhere did I see the holy grail of Solo NOTs – the correction list. And without that, I would have been left in the ditch during my first six months of solo auditing the level. And without the whole setup at Flag, with its course room, the Golden Age of Tech drills, the cramming officers, Qualifications division… and the e-meter refurbishing… what would we do. No, I simply have to support the church, even with all the craziness going on. It’s the only way.

How are you amazing?

One question that has helped me in my life is “How is that person amazing?”.

I try to never forget that every person I meet is in some way amazing. Awesome. In some way. I just have to find it. And whenever I search, and I mean really search, I do find it. With some people, their awesome is hidden – beneath shyness, arrogance, lack of confidence, hatred or socially acceptable behavior. But it is always there.At least that is my experience.

But all to often I do forget, and that is when I find people to be less than they really are. And that is my mistake. Luckily I am reminded of people’s inherent amazingness when someone who’s awesome shines very bright. Like the Korean talent in this video (pull out your handkerchief):

I write this post to help me never forget. And to inspire others to search for the awesome in the people they meet, and to let their own shine through. How are you amazing?

From inside Geir’s head while on OT 7

(An ordinary day while I was solo auditing [doing spiritual counseling on myself] on the second highest spiritual level in Scientology.)

Crap. I just may have forgot to turn the knob. Or did I do it? No… no I didn’t… I think. Shit. Gotta call Katrine and tell her to turn it a few times. I don’t want to know if I left the safe unlocked. Cause if I did, there will be havoc on my next Refresher at Flag. Another Intensive of Sec Checking worth some USD 7500. And they will find out. No way to hide the truth. If I did mess up and leave the safe open, and the auditor asks that question about “out security”, the e-meter will pick it up. And the auditor will dig and dig and dig until I cough up my blunder. My crime. After all, I have the most secret of secrets in my safe back at home. The OT 7 materials. I can’t even imagine what would happen to a person not at this level on the Bridge getting his hands on those materials. I mean, the correction list contains every secret on this level. It was a close call when that Indian security guard at the airport demanded I unlocked my briefcase so that he could inspect it. He actually took out some of the material and looked it over. Thank God he didn’t actually read it. No, no. Got to fend the thoughts off. Can’t think about the procedures, the content of the material outside of session. Frak, back to focus. Call Katrine.

Hi, it’s me. You need to go down to the safe and turn the knob a few times. Don’t ask. Need to be 100% sure about the security. … You done? OK, thanks. Love you, bye.

Ah, that felt good. But did I leave it unlocked? Did I go “out security”? Thankfully I will never know. She didn’t check to see if it was open. Nobody will know. Not Flag, not me, not Katrine. But what if she DID check to see if it was open? Maybe unintentionally? Maybe she moved the door a tiny bit and discovered it to be open. Would she have noticed? Would she tell me? I should call her and ask… But if I don’t, then I won’t know if she knew. But that thought of doubt may just show up on the e-meter when I go to Flag. Maybe I should take it up in my next solo session… Just run it out as a rudiment. But heck, then my Case Supervisor will know and then the Director of Processing and then the Ethics Officer. Fuck. I got to forget it. It’s probably not important. It probably was locked after all. I’m sure I turned the knob when I put the material into the safe. I must have. Or?

Focus, man! The road. Cars. Nice Porche. Wonder what model… See – I am forgetting already. Damn, thought of it again. Car, car, car… Will I get my 4 sessions today? I need two more to reach that target. Yeah, I get off at 16:00, be home at 17:00, go straight into a session after grabbing a bite. Session lasts 10-15 minutes. End of at approximately 17:30. Chill and eat some more. Take a bunch of vitamines and back into session around 18:30. End the last session at 19:00 max. Get kids to bed and head for the bed myself – at around 20:30. Have to be at sleep by 21:00 to get up at 5 in the morning to get my two morning sessions. Yeah, I should be able to get four every day this week. Nothing to distract from my main quest.

Wonder when I’ll be done. I’ve been on for less than a year by now. Probably takes me two or three years more to finish The Level. Ah, that will be soooo damn good. I should be able to get an average of four sessions per day. Hell that’s 1450 sessions per year. And if I complete the level in four years, that will be more than five thousand sessions total. That’s a lot of auditing. And with the wins and gains I’m having, I’ll be freakin’ Superman before I’m done. I’ve never felt this awake, this potent, this on top of life before.

Except for this security thing. Crap, that thought again. Was it really locked? Yeah, it must have been…

Catching up

A week’s vacation and here I am. Man, you guys have been busy… 500 comments. To make it easy for myself, instead of wading through the threads looking for questions I should address, it’s far easier to ask you here if there is anything you want me to comment on or take up. So, this is a free-for-all post; You are free to ask any question, direct my attention to any comment, tell a joke or offer a cheese cake recipe… or whatever. Feel free 🙂

My talk on Big Data at the CiO Forum

Thanks to those who contributed ideas to my talk this Thursday. I held the opening talk at the CiO Forum here in Oslo. The forum is hosted by Computerworld and there was between 100 and 200 IT executives attending.

I was about to fall prey to my own preconceived idea that I should have a set of “traditional slides” (albeit with weird twists) as the basis for my talk. I should mention that I very seldom do slides. Mostly it’s me with a flip-over dancing and jumping and gesticulating like an Italian. I tend to use people from the audience up on stage to do small role-playing scenarios, to let the audience do drills and such. But this time I was about to simmer down to conservatism when Brendan thankfully shot my slides to pieces. As he kept on questioning my approach, I realized that I was on the wrong track.

Instead I decided to take a piece of paper and draw out the concepts I wanted to cover, and true to my own website, I ended up scanning the drawing and using that as the main point of my presentation. Funny when another speaker approached me before my talk, looked at this “slide” and asked: “Is that Powerpoint… or another fancy presentation program?” “It’s pen, paper, scanner”, I replied and he looked slightly confused.

I know that most of you here don’t read Norwegian. This is as good a time as any to learn the language. Any questions – just ask 🙂

Here’s the link to the full image.

What’s with the discussions?

This blog has been active for 1,5 years now. It replaced my old Scientology blog as I wanted to move my open writing into any area that tickled my fancy. Like free will and other existential philosophical subjects, HP calculators and other technical subjects, as well as life and living.

This space is marked by many long and interesting discussion by very smart people with very different viewpoints. When I write somewhat controversial posts, the discussions usually counts several hundred comments, some even more than a thousand. This has become the blog on the Internet that gathers the most replies on specific Scientology-related subjects. Perhaps because it tackles the core philosophy of Scientology and possibly because it retains a fairly objective stance, being neither effusively pro nor toxically against. But rather exploring, evaluating and searching for areas to improve.

However, my interest lies not with Scientology. What occupies me is enlightenment, truth, free will and general improvement. Any tool should remain junior to an intended result. Except for my HP-41… it remains a solution is search of a problem. Being a nerd at heart, I luv my tools – but I still try to keep my eyes focused on the goals. I try to do what generates the best results toward those goals.

Do the discussions on this blog? Are they worth it? What are they worth? Almost a hundred comments per day is a lot. Maybe it’s time to end the discussions while on the top?

What did you dream of when you were twelve?

Try to remember back when you were twelve years old. Maybe that New Years Eve, eagerly looking into the future, busy creating that dream of an adult life.

What did you envision? What goals did you forge? What did you dream of becoming, of doing, of accomplishing?

Take hold of that old childish dream for a few seconds. Touch it, re-dream it. Feel it.

Now snap into the present and take a look at your life as it is. Did your dreams come true?

Why?

Or why not?

What can you, in hindsight learn when you once again stand at another New Years Eve forging another goal to reach?

Or what can that twelve year old child in your past teach you tonight?

My basic principles

I have adopted three basic principles of late:

  • 100% responsibility
  • Simplicity
  • Immediate relevance

1 With the principle of 100% Responsibility I seek to establish who should be fully responsible for a wanted result. In distributing responsibilities in an organization, I focus on responsibility for results, not for tasks. And the focus is on total responsibility for the result. Not shared responsibilities, group responsibilities or partial responsibility. Google “100%” and you get “100%=1”. If two soccer defender are confused about their responsibilities, you can get a) both looking at the ball while the striker dashes in between them to score or b) both going after the ball and leaving plenty of room on both sides. Clearly defined responsibilities ensures less overlap or holes.

simplicity The principle of Simplicity pervades everything I do – trying hard to reduce every solution to its simplest possible form. As Einstein once said “Make everything as simple as possible, but not simpler.

This blog is mainly a vehicle for simplifying my thoughts.

! Immediate Relevance ensures focus and value creation. It does not equate to short sightedness or lack of creativity. If the task at hand is the generating of a company strategy, then keeping the meeting focused on what’s immediate relevant to that strategy ensures a more productive meeting. Keeping all minds highly creative in a mind storming meeting is keeping with the same principle. Immediate relevance is about sticking to the goal. And sometimes it is fruitful to simply let the mind wander – and then I would ensure Immediate Relevance even in that wild abandon.

Just letting you in on how I operate these days.

This is inspired by my mentor Hans Trygve Kristiansen and the Amazing Brendan.

Merry X-Mas!

Celebrating another year of blogging. Celebrating a year of hefty contributions from the regular readers here with a third blog post racking up more than 1000 replies. Celebrating free thinking, free will and being a work in progress. Celebrating X-Mas!

Time to pause, chill, read a book, chew on some food (for thought), embrace the family, the traditions and the slow motion of time. Time to go Nisse and put on a Santa costume and visit your customers and to give them a hug.

nissene

Brendan and Geir goes nissing

After X-Mas there are a couple blog posts lined up – one about goals and dreams, another about evaluation.

Take care and have a joyful X-Mas!